The arrival

I've been waiting for this day for over a month now. I've tried to bring it on by my own means, to inspire it to appear, but it would not come. I found it today though.

This day is the day the emptiness arrived. All the choices in the last month that should have brought guilt but didn't. All of the moments that should have been frightening but weren't. All of the happiness that was mediocre and unimportant. It all crashed in today.

And I am alone. And that's just fine.