Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Bavarian Sugar cookies

"Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair, in routine and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian sugar cookies. And, fortunately, when there aren't any cookies, we can still find reassurance in a familiar hand on our skin, or a kind and loving gesture, or subtle encouragement, or a loving embrace, or an offer of comfort, not to mention hospital gurneys and nose plugs, an uneaten Danish, soft-spoken secrets, and Fender Stratocasters, and maybe the occasional piece of fiction. And we must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause. They are here to save our lives. I know the idea seems strange, but I also know that it just so happens to be true." - Character Kay Eifel played by Emma Thompson, Stranger than Fiction.

I have found something out: I have got to stop living for what I am going to do tomorrow. I am making a complete waste out of today. This is my life now. My life now is not what comes before what I do tomorrow. I do not want to live because of determination. I want to settle into comfort in this world, in this life, in this moment... even though these things are increasingly uncomfortable. This life is a lover of mine. Even though we are fighting right now, and becoming disillusioned, even though my honeymoon with me is over, this committed, known, welcome familiarity of me is a journey I am happy to take.

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